Somehow when the dark cloud looms over us, everything is distorted.  Life is unfamiliar and your mind is no longer your own.  How quickly we can be led to think that we are alone and do not have a family in this world.

How often is our family standing right in front of us when we feel this way.

Be thankful for those who have been a constant love in your life.  Who, even though you may not hear from every day, are there, loving you, without ceasing.  Refuse to believe the lie that you are alone in this world.  

Remember that, love is always there, even if not always seen or felt at the time.  You must have faith that it is there, even when your mind tells you otherwise.  Simply because the truth is, that it is there.  Always. Whether your mind believes it on that day or not.

~To all the women who have played some role in piecing me back together when I wasn’t sure I could do it for myself.  I love you, and I am thankful God placed you in my life.

Lauren

 

Love and Circles

Thank you for showing up on that day, and sitting on the ground in a circle with me

For being my friend when it felt like no one else wanted to be.

 

For painting signs and jumping in fountains

Listening to me cry and helping me climb mountains

 

For sitting on the bed and not saying anything when I fell

For remembering my birthday and always meaning it when you said you wouldn’t tell

 

For holding my hand through the stupid melodrama 

For being my stand-in, away from home, mama

 

For being the one I could cry to when I was too scared to tell anyone else

For absolving me from my sins when I thought I was too lousy, even for myself

 

For hitting screen doors in the middle of the night and baking cookies just a little too loud

For no matter what, letting me know you were proud

 

For saying hi to me at the Red Sox baseball game

For not saying anything about my high school “claim to fame”

 

For praying for me in the bathroom when the whole world collapsed

For sitting with me on the grass when too much time had passed

 

For not judging a thing, and treating me with value

For helping me realize I don’t have to be brand new

 

For answering the phone when the tears wouldn’t stop

For hearing me out when I thought my mind may not

 

For sitting against the wall and being realer than real with me

For helping my heart to finally see.

 

For ministering to me when my faith faltered

For feeding my soul when it felt nothing else mattered 

 

For sitting in circles and listening to my highs and lows

For crying with me because you felt each of the blows

 

For praying when I couldn’t do it for myself

For loving me when I felt like I had just been put on a shelf

 

For getting to know who I was deep down

For helping me see God’s beautiful Crown

 

For being my family when I felt alone

And tying me together when I couldn’t do it on my own

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